My Journal and Diary
2015
January
Sunday, January 11th, 2015
Cry to God for Financial Help
I feel a little exhausted right now regarding money. All this scrimping and saving, and I made nearly $60,000 this year, and still I can't afford to pay the $6077 HST I collected, and I know my taxes are going to be impossible too! And I don't have new work coming in, and now Frank has me working for free!
I don't know what to do. I'm a little tempted to just quit it all and try to find a job. :-/ I feel exhausted. I love my wife with every ounce of my being, and wish I could support her better financially. I don't want to live the tight stingy life I gravitate to! I want my kids to be able to take nice birthday gifts to their friends, and I want to be able to have people over for dinner! And yet, how do we afford it?
God--only you know the answer, only you have the resources to solve this problem! I don't know what to do. I just throw myself at you again. I realize that so much of my time I'm just sitting around wasting time! I'm not productive. Or I spent time doing things that don't actually make money, like writing these Psalm songs. I'm tired Lord. Discouraged and tired, and disillusioned a bit, and maybe frustrated? Just tired really, though.
Please give me more money Lord. Help me find a way to pay these taxes, and to afford to live. PLEASE!