My Journal and Diary
2015
February
Monday, February 9th, 2015
Faith is Hard Work Sometimes
We had a nice weekend-- it's been crazy amounts of snow falling for a week or two, and the piles are waist high!!
Gracie hurt her neck somehow last week, and missed some school because of the pain she was in. Seth has been sick in bed for a week with the flu or something--Joanne worked out at FITT and her body has been killing her... Rosie has been doing her regular temper tantrums, though there has been improvement on pulling it together.
Work has certainly picked up some, though at times I wonder about this 'partnership' with Frank. It seems like a lot of work that I could be paid for, and no income to show for it.
I've felt stressed over the last couple of weeks about life in general. On one hand, there's so much to be thankful for. On the other hand, there are so many unknowns hanging over my head that stress me out... things like the taxes, this T4 generation I'm supposed to do apparently... the low attendance at the Crossing lately, the list could go on as long as there was hours in this day... but I guess in the end, I'm looking for reasons to explain my stress... it's generally a lack of faith, I guess. I don't know that I want to have to constantly be living in faith. I want to live comfortable, where faith is not required.
Faith is tiring. Faith is constantly necessary, a pressing back against the pressures of life. Faith is not easy, it takes f***ing hard work. lol
So I'll keep plugging away, and I pray, Lord, that you will never disappoint me. I pray you'll just constantly be there, my friend and God.
Amen