My Journal and Diary
2015
October
Friday, October 16th, 2015
Fighting and Struggling
Ugh, Joanne and I are fighting again today. The same fight we've been having for 15 years. She assumes I'm criticizing her or that I think she's stupid, and so reacts to that assumption with belittling and critical comments about me. I react to those comments with actual criticism of her nastiness, which makes her feel misunderstood and angry and creates a feedback loop. She starts to raise her voice, I react to the intensity--before you know it we're both volatile and upset.
God, help us.
Not much in the way of work again. I'm frustrated with the lack of income, Lord. My business account is down to $300, our main checking account is probably overdrawn or near zero, and we haven't even bought pellets yet for the heating season. Please help us.
The truth is, I'm lazy to get more work, and I'm even lazy to do the work I've got. I think I may be borderline depressed.
Help us Lord.